life as we know it??

Hye. It’s  been a long time I’m not updating my blog, seriously I had learnt something better in life..as life as we know it, like a perfect plan with somebody that I love.

Its killing me deeply inside, whatever it is. I’ll try my best for not forgetting her that I had known her for 4 years..I might not be the same one as before.

But, loving her was the best things happen in my life, knowing her. She never knows what I feel.

This is not a plan for making this work. But its something that we used be4..yes I  learnt something, by watching people around me.. I know there’s nothing goin to happen between me and her.. and it never.

If I cried, then would she heard and saw my tear??

How if my soul cried, would she knows that??

And the answer-it is always NO.. and its always no. because I’m not exist. I’m dreaming something that never happen. Dreaming about a girl that is nothing with me.. Its like live with nothing around. I am so sad that she never…..hmm never.

Yes, that’s why I said “something is not right” if I want, I can have a girl. But I can’t!! you understand that? I can’t make it..really can’t. I don’t want to be such a hypocrite man. Maybe if I just saw a couple eating burger, laughing around and hangout together, I might be jalousie, full of hatred, angry and sick with all those situation. And I’m screwed

I’m sorry, if  I’ve cross the line. I have to spill it out. Yes I have too..maybe gone for good, for now I’m just realize that, she’s not mine till forever.

I must be focused, be a travel man in this circle of life, because it is the life as we know it.

  Regard-haziq